Monday, August 17, 2009

Summer 2009 Wasnt So Fine


as i sit here at my desk at work I think how horrible this summer has been okay okay let me not be dramatic, but this summer has been the most ummm?? ahhhh??? you know i cant even find a word for it. I mean this summer wasnt horrible and it wasnt the best summer ever. I mean i just remember those day when i was SUPER excited about summer i would be like counting down the days. but i think summer is becoming like one of those birthdays where you are happy to see another year of life but its not like a differance in anything just age. i mean when you turned 13 you where SO excited to be a "teenager" when you turned 18 you could finally go out to a club and vote...the birthdays in between are just kinda blah...yea blah thats how my summer has been. I planned to do SO much i wanted to take lots of pictures..sleep till 12 in the afternoon..take trips...take a dance class...work-out everyday...go see all the summer blockbusters i barely did any of that :/ i mean its no one fault. I feel like a large part of the reason i didnt do some of the things i wanted to do this summer is because i felt like i needed some to do it with me. I mean who wants to go to the movie by themselves...thats lame lol and i enjoy having a work-out partner because it is always nice having someone there to motivate you to run that extra lap or do another set of abs. Though my summer wasnt what i planned it to be i somewhat enjoyed. I enjoyed it because i learned alot about myself and realized that sometime you really cant depend on other people if you want to do something. Sometimes your family&friends cant or choose not to do something with you and thats okay because its good to know that you can depend on yourself. I knew that i a long time ago i just think it took awhile for me to believe it. And with me going into my second year of college i am going in with alot more confidence in myself. I KNOW i am capable of dealing with the workload my professor give me i know where and where not to go to when i am stressed. And i know who i can and can not depend on. All these things i learned will not listening in my summer school class or waiting for the phone to ring at work...i guess this summer wasnt TO bad


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